me and 88db

Hoping to have better life and future...planning for success and happiness...believe in fate and destiny...hoping for the best and prosperity.

without shame i admit, i am fully ambitious. i have my bachelor's degree, planning to take master degree...even dreaming to work in the best place.received nice looking digits pay check.drive fancy car and wear nice fancy-expensive clothes and spending without regretting. These are my missions.Easy to say...

Thanks to Mccann Erickson for giving me hard time over there made me quited my job annndddd lead me to get comfortable in 88db.com. Just after 2 weeks of resignation i got a call from Christine, Marketing Manager for 88db. Being a brat, i had 101 thoughts to accept the position as a writer in the company.Well for money sake i accepted the offer.the office is in KL so it is waaaayyyy much better rather than mccann.working hours:9-6...rather than mccann:9-forever.

Life was back on track as i received paycheck every last day of the month..being employed feels like you are belonged in the world.feeling saved, i started planning of buying my own car and even budgeting makes me feel good.having my own belanjawan bulanan makes me feel like a grown up.but then notin can satisfy human rite??so hoping to get better job always crossed my mind.3 months of probation in 88db seems great. Christine was a nice lady boss,elvina was a great partner, Emily and Keisha were a fun team to work with.we bonded and having so much fun...

But this post is not about them.yes yes fun fun under the sun...but then dark clouds entered when Christine told me that she need to let me go on the day i supposed to be confirmed!!due to economy crisis that hypothesiscally will occur next year made her decided to take away my freinds, my cubicle,my beloved pc and my-already-comfortable-zone

Fairness is not the issue here especially when it comes to this kind of matter. trying to think like an adult and taking it easy like how islam taught me to be,i accepted this with open heart. i didnt shed a tear even though everytime i tink about it a pool of tears appear my eyes. After a few deep breathe have been taken after the news with my shaking hands i called up my parents whom i've been neglecting for the past few months.Knowing them, they said nice and comforting words and kept on telling me that "mesti ada hikmah and rezeki awak bukan dkt situ". Swallowing those words whether i wanted it or not i sitted quitely at the emergency staircase and litted up my cigaratte. Trying to call my darling maisara but cudnt get thru...i sitted there inhaled and exhaled the smoking cigaratte.Few secs later i dialled up mai's brother.with my heartbroken, i cudnt remember wut i have mumbled the moment he picked up the phone but he heard the part i said kakak ada?the moment i heard her say hello i can feel a blood rushing thru my face and suddenly my nose started to process liquid.i told her calmly without sheding any tears.

As i walked into the office i knew i had to tell Elvina the truth as we are so close. Telling her the unpleasant news and seing her crying making things harder for me.i took off early as darling mai decided to picked me up at the office.

From this experienced i realized that stepping in a new world is easy but to stay in it is very hard.sometimes you win sometimes you will loose.Not knowing what will happen next always crosses your mind.But family seems to support and undestand me as they will keep on telling that this is not the end of the world and they just can stop distributing my cv around.My friends were broken hearted too after knowing what happened. My darling mai helped a lot too same ,goes with eza,nadd and few...yes few...i dont want the whole world to know...

What bothers me rite now is why do i deserved this. What kind of test is Allah giving me. is it true that better things will come??Have i've been forgotten Him for long until he decided to show His presents to me.Don't know why but i feel sooo ashamed.As i was so focusing on my missions i forgot that only He can assure wether i will achive my missions or not...