If only im Nabila Kardashian

it is 8 am on monday today. Im all awake since sahur and straight to the office at 630 am. Just for today im an early riser due to invigilation. as i reached here at 7am i walked straight to the office to show my "determination" and "enthusiasm" towards my duty. Funny as i reach at the exam unit department, the door is close and the room is empty. The stupid thing is, they have stressed so many time to the lectures to collect exam questions 30 minutes before exam starts. waited till 7.45 then the admin people arrived.

Stupid when people made the rule but they themselves are not the biggest fan of that particular rule. anyway, enough said.

Being here at 8am, sleepy, cold and bored making me asking myself again, why didnt i have an interesting talent so that maybe i could be a singer, comedian, actress or maybe a porn star. Having a big headache due to accessive dosage of "Keeping up with the Kardashians" yesterday making me feel like banging my head at the wall even more.

Watching fake reality tv shows on sunday always make you hate your own life. you will started to think that life could be fun like how the Kardashians makes it look like, life can be all hip and happening and can even lead to a conclusion that MY LIFE SUCKS. watching Giuliana & Bill makes me feel my bachelorette's crip is the ugliest and watching Kimora makes me feel terribly underpaid.

With a masters degree in communication and my major in broadcasting i cant believe i am still flimsy and still open to be corrupted by media. Every monday morning, while i am showering i am very determine to send in my resignation letter, and today the feeling is even worst haha. when thinking about resigning sudddenly my mind and soul are being modest, it started to tell me that it is ok if you work part time and earn 800 ringgit..you can survive when all this time with my proper salary i always believe im underpaid. monday blues strikes back or the return of the monday blues. it will never end.

I hate you the Kardashians!!

an annual event

im starting to believe that my act of posting on my blog is more like an annual event. haha..guess im not really a minum blog, makan blog, tidur blog kinda person.

it is already the mid of the year. the end of 2011 is coming. so many events occured as it part of adulthood, the colison of great and unfortunate events towards me. Now that i am working,time flies so fast that sometimes it scares me. And everytime when i read back the things that ive posted on you few years back, it feels like reading an artifact haha..

the worst thing had happened this year, i had to grasp the sadness of losing something important in life. i have lost my one and only companion, ELMO THE CAT. elmo left the family without any final hug. he was sick. elmo had FIDS. How he went away, none of us know, elmo went missing and never came back. The whole family hope that at the last few moments of his life, elmo was calmed and wasnt scared. And went he closed his eyes its more like feeling sleeping rocking on a hammock with a cool breeze. what i really do hope was that the love that he got was satisfying and at the time he was about to went away he took the time to reminisce with a smile instead of opting to die due to neglection.

Dear Elmo, enjoy your life up there coz you have enjoyed your life here. you are deeply miss and although the whole family has been going through changes dont ever think you were less important. WE LOVE YOU.