comment ca va?

I cant hardly understand french although i have learnt it for almost 3 years, back when i was in uni. however, with my level of proficiency i believe that ccomment ca va means "how are you doing"SO, how are you doing? i know i have left you unattended for decades and thats it because 1. nothing spectacular events happened in my life 2. writing blog is not for leisure in my case as i dont have internet coverage at home. WHat is doing-it-for-leisure when in order to do it you have to go tru a lot of hassle isnt it?ANyway, standard reply for comment ca va is ca va bien, means "im doin fine" yup, JUST FINE.

A student of mine came to me and told me about you actually, he said things that i wrote to you are intresting. to be honest, i have forgotten all about you. i had to request for my own password in order to enter you earlier. If you are still wondering whether im still living in predicaments, i must say yes. But this time its in differnt context. You must be tired listening to my prolong predicament stories but then its not that im enjoying myself as well. Life for me does not come in a package you must know, sealed with with beautiful wrapper and attached with a lovely ribbon and together with a small note saying "beautiful life for this one beautiful soul" however my life comes in a form of pieces of puzzles and attached with a note saying "TOO BAD SO SAD". Therefore, im not trying to say it is bad entirely, there are times when the puzzles bring good discoveries in the end.

Okay enough whinning. Owh not to forget, im about to finish my master degree soon insyaallah. Only god knows how much im yearning and desperately want it to be done. im counting the days to be honest. Along the way studying lots of crucial and unfortunate things happened. I had to struggle to obtain my willingness to get my master done. I cant imagine myself graduating next year, i believe this time i will shed a tear. i will remember the hardness of achieving. It wasnt easy like how it was in degree and diploma. If you askedme, i do not know why. I believe this is part of the test as well. When i went for the interview a year and a half ago, a professor told me that it is not easy persuing master. the hardness doesnt lie in the subjects but in a framework that you could never imagine..its just its temperament.And..he is right. there are lots of circumstances that i need to face and conditions that i need to opt. There are times when i cried myself to sleep as this is the only remedy to keep on going.

Anyway, im all grown up and wiser. Just like one of my student said "life is about vision, without vision, confusion"i guess this is how things were preodained to me : life=puzzles.i need to have vision in order not live in confusion which led by the puzzles. Enough philosophy making me drowsy. so AU REVOIR! missing you much!